Today is the beginning. Today is the beginning of the long wait. Today is  the beginning of nervously wondering what they are thinking while reading my grades and French letters, which I took weeks to write and had four separate French people look at and re-read over and over again, until I felt it was [...]


They feel empty to me when they used to explode from the darkest cracks within me. When I used to shout from the rooftops and mumble words, sitting for hours trying to make them sound just perfect, to sum up my thoughts, beliefs... My being in itself. Now I'm lost. Lost within words to try [...]